i'm sorry i'm not updating here that often to anyone that cares
things are absolutely hectic on and offline

i've had this horrible depression for the past month or so, and i know how "g33z3 feck1ng 3m0" it is to have problems and expecially depression, but i need to let it out...

i've been in total isolation for the past few months
even going out into public, i feel like everybodies enemy
its kinda immature for a woman of my age to be rambling like a teen girl, but this has just been miserable.
One of my friends said what probably my mother wouldve said "You need a good man in your life" well its hard when the world seems to have turned its back on you

I dont really know what to do but to try to carry on...